I care. I care so much that my heart hurts.
We sit over coffee and I listen. I try to really listen. To listen with my heart, not just to create a response.
Thoughts and feelings flood my soul. I lean in.
The coffee mug is now empty, but my heart is full.
The day moves on, but my heart is stuck.
I can't fix it. I'm helpless. The problems, these heartaches, they are bigger than my ability. Because let's be real, I think I can help people, but really it's only Jesus who has power enough to restore and redeem.
Trusting Jesus with the lives of those I love is harder for me than trusting Him with my own life and decisions.
But that's what He is asking me to do. Trust Him. Open my hand. Listen and love and and then lift them to my Jesus. Pray and pour out my heart to the One who loves them more.
Sometimes I need to lean in and take action. And then sometimes I need to take a step back and pray.
For a girl who likes to do, to accomplish, to see things happen, to be a changer. Nothing is harder than doing nothing.
I totally get this! Cannot tell you how many times I've gone over this in my head. It's hard when you want to help... But how great is our God!
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